For those who have been around the blog for a while, you know my belief is that something bigger than myself is protecting and guiding me. When you’ve lived within the grip of addiction (or most anything for that matter) you know that you are not in control and you’re thankful for that fact.
Still, we all have those days, right? The ones where we wake up feeling heavy with the sense of impending doom. We start believing the lies that we’re not good enough, we don’t have what it takes and we won’t reach the goal we’ve focused on. There are a variety of reasons for this.
Maybe it was a nightmare. Maybe its boredom or not recognizing the blessings. Maybe it’s fear. Maybe it’s regret. The challenge lies not in figuring out what it is necessarily, but how to confront it, change what can be changed and let go of the rest.
For some of us the holidays trigger all sorts of emotions. Not everyone is feeling as if it’s the “most wonderful time of the year.” For them, the last twelve months have been painful and filled with loss.
I want to encourage you, in whatever place this season finds you, surrender to where you are. Feel it without allowing it to penetrate your heart. For this girl, it’s the only way to move past it. Don’t drowned it in alcohol or stuff it down with food. Don’t try to throw it up or numb it through a variety of mind altering substances. Just be. Be in the moment without letting it consume you. I promise, when you do this, you will gain a better understanding of who God is and the purpose he has for your life.
These are the steps I use when needing to shift my emotional reality.
- Find a quiet place and be still.
- Acknowledge where you are mentally, spiritually and emotionally.
- Focus on the cleansing breath going in through the nose, filling the lungs and entering each cell of the body, bringing with it healing and life.
- Find one word or sentence to meditate on and if needed continue to repeat it in your mind or out loud, over and over throughout the day. It can be as simple as, “God, direct my thinking.” or “Forgiven.” or “Child of the King.” Whatever your word or phrase is, it must focus on the positive.
Chances are you will interact with someone who is not in the “holiday spirit.” What will your response be? Step out of yourself and be the light for someone else. In order to do that you must first invite the light in.
So tell me, are you in that place right now? Did you wake up nauseated by the thought of tinsel toppers, reindeer SUVs and red bucket ringers? How will you fill your mind today?
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Great, great, great post. I’ve felt myself slipping into “that place” recently when I begin to think about how different Christmas will be this year. It would be incredibly easy for hurt and anger and bitterness to just take over. But God (which may be two of my favorite words) has blessed me so tremendously over the last six months. I don’t want to focus on those who have hurt me instead of the One who has cared for me. I’m making a conscious effort to continue counting my blessings daily and doing some Advent reading plans to keep my eyes where they belong. One of the best ways I’ve found to stop the self-pity is to get active in helping someone else in need. I’m actually working on a post about that to go along with one of my Advent readings. My office has adopted several kids from a local elementary school for Christmas, and I have had the privilege of shopping for their presents. And our people DONATE. We started with 2 kids, then increased that to 4, and I just called the school today to add another FIVE kids because we have had several people/businesses want to adopt their own kid and provide everything for them instead of just pitching in. It’s the best feeling in the world to know that these kids – and their families – are going to have an awesome Christmas. And it reminds me that I am tremendously – TREMENDOUSLY – blessed.
That is so great, Nancy. We all need to make a conscious effort to count our blessings daily. Thank you for being the difference