These early morning encounters with my Savior have become sacred.
I never would have thought that being awakened before dawn would be something I cherished or even welcomed. However, now in these moments, it feels like a personal invitation from the King to come and sit in His presence.
I have been meditating on a quote that I first heard from my dad when I was much younger. It’s by Guillaume Apollinaire;
“‘Come to the edge,’ he said.
They said, ‘We are afraid.’
‘Come to the edge,‘ he said.
They said, ‘We will fall.’
‘Come to the edge,’ he said.
They came.
He pushed them
and they flew.”
There is an edge in my life right now.
One that could be a place of great clarity and promise.
But I’m afraid.
So I sit here in the silence of early morning and ask the Father for guidance.
There is a beautiful stillness,
A comforting acknowledgement,
A desire just to be in His presence, soaking up His faithfulness.
It is a place where the only requirement is that I show up.
Nothing is demanded of me. Nothing.
There is perfect peace as I listen to the symphony of nature just outside the window.
I bring this internal stirring to the One who knows me best.
I lay it at His feet.
I will wait for direction
and in the meantime I will rest in the evidence all around and inside
of His provision, unrelenting grace and love without conditions.
Have you come to the edge of something potentially wonderful? What’s holding you back?
Even A Girl Like Me 
1,000 times yes! Your post so perfectly mirrors my feelings about my blog and being unsatisfied with it. What has held me back? The evil one who wants me quiet and insecure. The one who cannot stand my story and the miracle it is. The one who tells me that everything else is more important than sharing God’s love. I am so grateful for you and others who have been pushing me to get moving. Thank you, Joy!
Jen,
I am more than thrilled that you are sharing your experience, strength and hope with others so that they don’t have to suffer in silence. You have so much to give. Thank you for allowing the Father to work in and through you!
Love and Light, my friend.
I found your blog through the Grit and Glory comments stream, and I’m so glad I did! I *LOVED* this post. I’m going through my own “edge” circumstance right now, but it isn’t one of my own making, and not one I expected to be facing. I’d been hit or miss with morning devotionals for a while. I’d do them if I hadn’t overslept, wasn’t running behind,e tc. I’ve been making it a priority to spend time with God in the mornings for the past 2 months (since all this started), and God has shown me so many things since I really began digging into His Word and searching for His will.
Even in the midst of my current circumstances – and they are devastating – I’ve found that God is faithful and true and is always there for me. He has shown me what blessings I can have if I will just trust that He is for me. I won’t be blessed because if my devastation, but THROUGH it and IN SPITE of it. A renewed desire to pursue hard after God in spite of my circumstances is my something wonderful.
Nancy!
I am so glad you’re here!
I don’t know what you are walking through and I don’t know what your future holds, but I know who holds your future.
I just returned from a night of worship at our church. One of the songs says, “Oh my God, He will not delay, my refuge and strength, always. I will not fear. His promise is true. My God will come through always.” This is my prayer for you, sweet friend. Whatever you are going through, keep going, more will be revealed and the best is yet to come. If not in this life, in the Heaven.
Blessings to you on this journey.
Thanks so much for the encouragement! 🙂
Joy,
I would say I go to the edge on things I should not go near at times so for me I have to try and make sure the edge I am dancing near is not one that is destructive for me. I don’t mind jumping over the edge or hanging my legs off and taking a look around. So for me I really have to make sure the edge is something worthy of playing near and jumping over with abandon.
Mark,
Thank you for commenting. I can relate to that edge as well. I usually refer to it as a cliff. For some reason I view this edge as a positive thing. One that I need to pay attention to.
Joy, this makes me realize how many times I have come to the “edge” in my own life and moved back into security. Now I’m there again. Thanks for the push.
It’s not always a fun place to be.
Thank you for reading, commenting and encouraging me on all of my endeavors 🙂